No Shots, No School, Not True

I would like to personally thank the elected leaders of Louisiana for the hard work they have put into our state’s vaccine laws, especially Senator Dan Morrish, and Representatives Nancy Landry and Beryl Amedee—who spoke to and emailed me directly showing tremendous support during my episode with my daughter’s school.

The story is, I have had an alarming number of friends in my life who have kids with autism. My neighbor, members of my bible study group, my godmother, and beyond. I went on a church retreat this summer and one of the mom’s had a son with autism, another had a kid with severe behavioral problems, and nobody on the retreat was allowed to bring or eat peanuts because of the food allergies. I have several friends with kids with food allergies so severe the only things they can eat are meat and fruit. My younger friends are plagued with chronic illnesses of different sorts—food allergies again, PCOS, lupus, migraines, arthritis, weight they can’t get rid of no matter how many calories they cut, unexplained infertility, etc. What the **** is going on?? I can’t help but ask myself.

So I’ve been digging. I had some severe brain fog issues myself. Scared that I was going to get early Alzheimer’s I found this book called Grain Brain by Dr. David Perlmutter. His medical doctor father suffered for 20 years with degenerative Alzheimer’s and dementia and it broke Dr. Perlmutter’s heart and sent him into a frenzy for a cure. The jist of his book is: The cause of Alzheimer’s is inflammation, the treatment for it is an anti-inflammatory diet and detox regimen, and by the way inflammation causes a million different problems depending on one’s genetics. 

So I took Dr. Perlmutter’s diet advice and behold! my brain fog went away and I’m sharper than I’ve ever been.

So then the vaccine debate started intriguing me a lot. There are too many kids with autism and I wanted to hear what the anti-vax people were saying because you cannot disagree with someone unless you understand their argument. The first thing I stumbled upon was The Truth About Vaccines docu-series. It blew me away. It’s an excellent resource. They interview a slew of doctors who used to follow the CDC schedule but have since either greatly reduced and delayed their vaccines, or stopped vaccinating altogether and now instead use other methods to boost immunity and prevent disease. They also interview medical journalists and insiders like Robert F. Kennedy Jr. to talk about the politics and money involved.

One of the most impressive interviewees in their line-up was Dr. Suzanne Humphries. She was a conventional doctor—making $300k a year as an internist and nephrologist (kidneys) when she realized that her patients were falling apart following their flu shots. Her conscience compelled her to leave her comfortable and prestigious job to join the movement to educate people on vaccines and I have found her youtube channel to be priceless in its abundance of important (and free!) information. She also two books that I plan on sending to the National Catholic Bioethics Center and various other authorities. They are titled: Dissolving Illusions and Rising from The Dead and are free to download on kindle.

Dr. Humphries goes into detail about the science on her youtube lectures and with her co-author Roman Bystrianyk (a medical historian) they detail how the vaccine industry took credit for something they never achieved. It was the plumbers, garbage collectors and farmers that are responsible for the massive decrease in deaths from infectious disease.

And another important thing doctors like Suzanne Humphries, Joseph Mercola, Brian Hooker, David Lewis, Debra Gambrell, Sherri Tenpenny etcetera etcetera are saying is that the BACKGROUND INGREDIENTS in vaccines are responsible for massive levels of inflammation, which are responsible for so much of the chronic illness (including autism) that we see today. When you inject aluminum, mercury, formaldehyde and foreign protein from monkeys and aborted babies—your body freaks out, and autoimmune conditions ensue.


I’ve been able to convince a number of people that vaccines do cause injuries. But the ones who still loom I think are paralyzed by two hang-ups:

  1. What if an infectious disease comes our way?
  2. But why would my doctor and hospital do this?

If you are a parent and worried about how to stave off any infectious disease for your child, especially your vulnerable child, then you must cultivate a healthy immune system in them. What we know about Germ Theory might actually be wrong—or at least incomplete. Louis Pasteur had a nemesis during his day, named Dr. Antoine Bechamp. You’re probably familiar with the idea that bad germs make us sick. That is from Pasteur. But the story of infection goes deeper. Bechamp argued that we are constantly surrounded by bad germs, but its only when a host organism becomes weakened that the bad germs become opportunistic and take over to make us ill. So it’s not the destruction of bad germs that is the key to overcoming sickness but in fact the cultivation of health through a nutritious diet and clean environment.


The best thing you can do for your child to cultivate their health so that bad germs don’t bother them too bad is to breast feed as long as possible, feed them nutritious food (especially fermented vegetables which are ideal probiotics) and maintain good hygiene.

But what about smallpox? There is truth to the concept that familiarizing the immune system to certain viruses can boost antibodies just like the milkmaids in Dr. Edward Jenner’s time were immune to smallpox because of their respiratory exposure to cows sick with cowpox. But that was a respiratory immunity. Introduction of weakened strains of viruses and bacteria should be done with respiratory and digestive exposure and there are products called Nosodes that are exactly that—with no lethal background ingredients like metals and foreign proteins. They’re just hard to find because their manufacturers don’t spend $1 billion per year on lobbyists so that every American child is forced to buy and take them.

But why would my doctor do this? 
That is a great question with a dark answer. It might turn you religious in fact. The truth is there are angels and demons all over the medical field. Some of my readers are familiar with my story; my biological father sold his parental rights to me to pay for medical school, they euphemize this by calling it sperm donation. Well, last  year I discovered that my biological father lost his medical license because he was caught selling online prescriptions for opiates—addicting the masses.

But think about this: if you were in the business of making and selling products for sick people, wouldn’t be in the best interests of your company to make as many people sick as possible? That is the brilliance of the vaccine mandates. The lobbyists and campaign funders and marketing channels of the vaccine manufacturers have made it so that every child in America (almost) must inject these products, which in turn creates massive inflammation, and because inflammation leads to a million different problems depending on your genetics, few of us are catching on that there is almost a single main source for this epidemic in various chronic illnesses. And the pharmaceutical companies get richer and richer selling epi-pens, inhalers, anti-seizure meds, chemo, etc.

But wasn’t I talking about my Louisiana state reps and my daughter’s school? Yes I was.

Small victory for Calcasieu Parish parents with a conscience. My daughter’s school asked for her “immunization” record, which I gave. I caught onto this vaccine/chronic illness connection late and unfortunately had her vaccinated with most of what was on the CDC schedule (there were problems, but thank God because I breastfed her for 2 years and never took anti-biotics I think we escaped the worst of it), but she did not get her second MMR shot nor her Varicella (chickenpox).

So a month into the school year I get this letter saying she needs to go to the doctor and get these missing shots. Because I’m a member of the Louisiana Parents for Vaccine Rights group I knew the law and that all I needed was to turn in a simple, bare bones letter declaring exemption on medical/philosophical/religious grounds. Soon after the school nurse called me and told me that I had to send in this form from an organization called LINKS (Louisiana Immunization Network for Kids Statewide). She wanted me to sign and initial the following statements:

I understand that some vaccine-preentable diseases (e.d., measles, mumps, pertussis [whooping cough]) are infecting unvaccinated U.S. children, resulting in many hospitalizations and even deaths.

I understand that though vaccination has led to a dramatic decline in the number of U.S. cases of the diseases listed below, some of these diseases are quite common in other countries and can be brought to the U.S. by international travelers. My child, if unvaccinated, could easily get one of these diseases while traveling or from a traveler.

I understand that my unvaccinated child could spread disease to another child who is too young to be vaccinated or whose medical condition (e.g., leukemia, other forms of cancer, immune system problems) prevents them from being vaccinated. This could result in long-term complications and even death for the other child.

I understand that if every parent exempted their child from vaccination, these diseases would return to our community in full force.

I understand that my child may not be protected by “herd” or “community” immunity (i.e., the degree of protection that is the result of having most people in a population vaccinated against a disease).

I understand that some vaccine-preventable diseases such as measles and pertussis are extremely infectious and have been known to infect even the very few unvaccinated people living in highly vaccinated populations.

I understand that if my child is not vaccinated and consequently becomes infected he or she could experience serious consequences, such as amputation, pneumonia, hospitalization, brain damage, paralysis, meningitis, seizures, deafness and death. Many children left intentionally unvaccinated have suffered severe health consequences from their parents’ decision not to vaccinate them.

I understand that my child may be excluded from his or her child care facility, school, sports events, or other organized activities during disease outbreaks. This means that I could miss many days of work to stay home with my child.

I understand that the American Academy of Pediatrics, the American Academy of Family Physicians, and the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention all clearly support preventing diseases through vaccination.

To me this form read like a statement of guilt for reckless endangerment and possible manslaughter. And I’m familiar with certain op-eds in major newspapers demanding that parents who don’t vaccinate be sued. So I was NOT comfortable signing this form and most importantly, I strongly disagree with the statements and the fake science behind them. And I noticed that there were names of organizations and people on that paper that are affiliates of Merck and have their funding entirely provided by pharmaceutical companies.

I told the school nurse I can’t sign them. And the principal called and left a voicemail saying I either got the vaccines, signed this LINKS form, or we couldn’t go to school there anymore.

So that’s when I emailed every state senator on the education committee and a few house representatives and and asked for their back up. And they really came through. Senator Moorish called my superintendent. And I believe Representative Nancy Landry did too. And I was able to record an incredibly polite and professional phone call yesterday with my daughter’s principal where she said “I am so sorry Ms. Newman, I spoke with Superintendent Bruchaus, there was a massive communication error and you need not worry. Your daughter has everything she needs and we are good to go.”

I write this to encourage you parents. You are not crazy when you see your young child having serious issues immediately following vaccines. And if you live in Louisiana, the law is on your side and there are good people here willing to support you. Reach out to them.

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Father Mother Donor Child

A new documentary by the incredibly talented Maria Arlamovsky at Geyrhalter Films.

What causes misery?


Here is some Hope.

“The only thing people want for itself is happiness. Alas, many have completely lost their way in how to find it! People have ended up chasing after things rather than ends – and like a drug addiction, the initial pleasurable sensation leads to obsession that becomes a nightmarish plunge into the abyss. They keep trying the things that got them there in the first place in a desperate attempt to get out of the abyss…and keep getting deeper. Physical addictions, if not checked, lead to early physical death. Spiritual addictions, if not checked, lead to despair, bitterness and a consuming malice that mutilates the heart and the soul. When lust replaces love, when greed replaces the work, when manipulation replaces ministry, darkness overwhelms. When the substitution of means for ends becomes culturally supreme, the world becomes a boneyard. No wonder there is such enthusiasm for zombie stories in modern life: our whole society has become filled with the walking – and mindlessly malicious – wounded. They lash out at the people who criticize their drug of choice: lust for power, money or casual sex – as if those people are the cause of their unrelenting misery. Just a few more shots of that drug will make everything okay, they think. So they attack the very people who are trying to rescue them from the misery they have created.

Happiness does not come from relentlessly indulging one’s appetites. In fact, that is a sure formula for misery and despair…

The good news is that people across the globe are reconsidering this brave new world. Millions, mostly laboring in quiet obscurity, are dedicating their lives to caring for their fellows. I know. These last few years I have spent a lot of time with them – and they never complain of microaggressions or how painful it is to have someone disagree with them. Millions more have checked their own spiritual addiction and begun to rediscover the happiness that comes from living the simple virtues – and denying their excessive appetites. I know. I have met many of them, too. Fr. Mitch Pacwa of EWTN reports that eight million Muslims converted to Christianity last year – and that for the first time in a long time, Africa has become a majority Christian continent.”

The Mission: Voting for The Right Person




Thirty years ago the film The Mission came out starring Robert De Niro (Rodrigo Mendoza) and Jeremy Irons (Father Gabriel). “Jeremy Irons plays a Spanish Jesuit who goes into the South American wilderness to build a mission in the hope of converting the Indians of the region. Robert DeNiro plays a slave hunter who is converted and joins Irons in his mission. When Spain sells the colony to Portugal, they are forced to defend all they have built against the Portuguese aggressors.”
It becomes clear that The Church is in no way willing to protect and defend the village and its people and so Father Gabriel and Rodrigo Mendoza become the sole European allies of the Indians. Mendoza is a competent and experienced mercenary. He tries to convince Father Gabriel to take up arms with him and defend the people. Father Gabriel refuses to kill others, even if it means the village will perish, himself included. Mendoza can’t understand his pacifism and uses his mercenary experience to go on the offensive. There is a moment when he kills the first of many Portuguese soldiers where we realize that all of the grace Mendoza received from his conversion and penance had slipped (he was a former slave trader and murdered his own brother after all). Two steps forward, one step back. 
In the end the Portuguese army is far more equipped to decimate the village than they could reasonably fight against. In the final scene Robert De Niro is killed (if I remember correctly, by his own booby trap) anyway and despite his efforts. Father Gabriel is killed as well—but he dies leading a holy eucharistic procession, alongside dozens of villagers of all ages, both male and female—singing hymnals and marching forward as the roof of their church burns in the background.

When I first saw the movie I was shocked by the ending. The good guys are supposed to win in American blockbusters. But here, they didn’t.
But then I realized the lesson in it. It is wrong to do evil so that good may come of it. 
Father Gabriel was killed just as Mendoza was, but it was Father Gabriel who died with a clean conscience.
That is how I feel about this election. I have been under significant enough pressure by people I care a lot about to vote for both Trump and Hillary (but mostly for Trump). The argument for Trump is that he is our only hope of getting a pro life Supreme Court justice. He is an “uncertain ally” but nevertheless our best shot.
To me it is as clear as day that Trump is not sincerely pro life but rather saying what he needs to say to win the election, much like Obama said he supported traditional marriage in 2008 to win the election but then reneged quickly thereafter. Trump wants to be President. He’ll do whatever. It is illogical for anyone to be simultaneously pro-life and display the kind of sexual recklessness he does.
Hillary of course did not legitimately win the Democratic primary. Bernie Sanders did. The people wanted Bernie Sanders and I liked him too (although I vehemently disagreed with him on abortion and other significant policy issues). Hillary succeeded in ballot fraud and it is clear that she is demonstrably more powerful than those of us who appreciate and play by the rules. Like the Portuguese military in The Mission I believe there is no stopping her.
Therefore on #electionday2016 I will not be using my vote as a weapon against Hillary like many Trump supporters are suggesting. I will support the third party candidate Evan McMullin who believes in protecting life at conception, but also sexual restraint and strong marriage and families. I will also be voting for Evan McMullin because of his policies concerning police brutality and the unjust mass incarceration of black men and immigrants seems to me to be humane, reasonable and respectful of the facts of the circumstances. There is deep racial tension in this country and some healing is more than due. Evan understands the connection between fatherlessness and crime and appears to prescribe policy changes that work to rebuild and rehabilitate minority communities. We can’t put people’s parents in jail for life and expect the next generation to be okay.
Those of us who vote for Evan may be “throwing away” our vote and securing a pro abortion supreme court justice. I’m not sure who is more dangerous, Hillary or Donald, but I am certain that I do not have the power to fight them. So I will go to mass the morning of the election, take in the eucharist, go to the voting booth, and do what my conscience dictates which is vote for the man whose policies and character I truly prefer.
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Buy my new book!

The second volume of Anonymous Us is finally available! It’s over 100 stories from the front lines of third party reproduction—a satisfying due diligence for anyone considering using a sperm or egg donor or surrogate. It’s also a great introduction to assisted reproduction for anyone who wants to know more about the subject.

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Mother Teresa on Abortion

I agree with her conclusion.screen-shot-2016-09-07-at-3-29-05-pm

“America needs no words from me to see how your decision in Roe v. Wade has deformed a great nation. The so-called right to abortion has pitted mothers against their children and women against men. It has sown violence and discord at the heart of the most intimate human relationships. It has aggravated the derogation of the father’s role in an increasingly fatherless society. It has portrayed the greatest of gifts—a child—as a competitor, an intrusion, and an inconvenience. It has nominally accorded mothers unfettered domination over the independent lives of their physically dependent sons and daughters. And, in granting this unconscionable power, it has exposed many women to unjust and selfish demands from their husbands or other sexual partners.”

Keep reading at Public Discourse.

Birthday Reflections

Today I am 30 years old.

I married a good man. We have three kids, the youngest of which arrived two weeks ago. In this rare moment where I have time to myself to write, I’m wondering what to say. The first and most important task of any great mother is to select a great father. With three children in four years, that has been my most successful play by far. All my weaknesses and arrogances have surfaced and been exposed. I am physically and intellectually much more average than I allowed myself to believe before. He makes up for all that. I am vain and petty. I spend far too much time thinking about attaining comfort items and material goods than I do thinking about other people and what I can be doing for them.

But still the great majority of my time every day is spent serving these four people God has placed in my life, especially the little three.

My mom came to visit immediately following my daughter’s birth. I am lucky to have her. She entertained and watched the kids, held the baby so I could do other things—or anything else at all rather. She did laundry, deep cleaned dark corners of our apartment, endured being six people in a two bedroom apartment. She took my oldest to the movies and to get a haircut. And much much more.

Good moms save the world. For all her sacrifices in raising me and the continued efforts she’s made in sustaining a relationship amid turmoil and disagreements I feel the need to thank her. I understand now its not easy raising kids. In fact I think it takes supernatural assistance to do the right thing all the time.

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International Women’s Day

In honor of International Women’s Day, I would like to document and share just a few recent media stories and pieces that I find relevant, illuminating, or beautiful.

1. Georgi Boorman’s “Surrogacy Means Uteruses For Rent and Babies For Sale”

Cook [a surrogate hired to deliver babies for a deaf, gay, single postal worker in Georgia living with his elderly parents] is now fighting for California’s surrogacy law to be ruled unconstitutional because, according to her lawyer, “it reduces a surrogate to a ‘breeding animal or incubator.’

2. Marie Smith’s “Girls Just Want To Be Born”

The scheme was successful. Today, millions of women in Asia are “missing”—never to dream, play, work, or become mothers. The long-term impact of the millions of “missing girls” includes increased violence against women and girls with increases in sex trafficking, forced prostitution, and the kidnapping and selling of women and girls as brides.

3. Lissie’s “Daughters”


4. Pilobus Symbiosis—a dance from a 2005 Ted Talk which I think beautifully illustrates the miracle that is men and women cooperating together to make the world a more harmonious place.

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Writing to write

This post is for me not for you. I’m writing to write. I’m writing to unwind and unload.


  1. My mom found my biological father (probably). I convinced one of his 3 children to take a DNA test, but directions were apparently not followed and now she needs to take it again but I’m struggling to get a response from her. My (likely) father apparently thinks I’m trying to scam the family, that I want money, that I’m fake. He has not entirely confessed that he was a donor. He was married at the time. He’s also a Hilary Clinton fan.
  2. My sister is getting married. For this I am pleased. They have 2 young children together and have been living together for nearly 4 years now. Statistically they’ve had a weak foundation to build on, the “sliding vs. deciding” problem. But he seems to be a good and stable guy. And I have faith the marriage will work. I’ll support it in every way I can at least. The greatest defense against evil is a married man and woman, a nuclear family. Or as Ryan Gosling said it “Put a man, woman and child together in a scene and you don’t have to say a word; there’s just a natural harmony and peace.”
  3. My husband won his age category in the Louisiana marathon. He worked incredibly hard for it, running 20 miles here, 18 miles there, 5 days a week for months. He ate right and switched to the elliptical after an injury, got massage work for a bad tendon. I’m proud of him. But I’m not proud of how strategized for the marathon. I didn’t try to understand the map. I didn’t bring warm enough clothes for the kids, we didn’t pay the money for our own hotel room and instead split it with another couple and didn’t get good sleep for the kids. I let the stress of single motherhood build and build and build and never once just got a babysitter or went to get my own massage to deal with the added load. Come race day I flipped out, lost my cool, and failed to celebrate the real achievement of my hard-working husband. I ruined the joy. And I’m very sorry about that. I think he is right, one day when our son is older, he will be very proud of the fact that his dad was able to run a marathon in under 3 hours.

Lastly, I’ve been researching and digging into homeschooling as an education solution for our kids. I’m disillusioned with public school. I hated my public school experience and now especially have some major reservations about putting them in a Common Core system that seems to have ridiculous data mining measures—even going so far as hooking children up to body monitors during testing to document their stress levels. Also—the elimination of cursive and the new math procedures (if it ain’t broke, why fix it??) all seems to work to alienate children from their parents, their ancestors and their history. If a child doesn’t know cursive how are they supposed to read The Constitution? Or their great-grandparents letters?? Or even birth and baptismal certificates when researching their genealogy?

I am scared to venture into home-schooling, but what is my alternative? Let them be consumed by predatory capitalists disguised as state educators? Or have their desire to learn hijacked by shallow bullies that distract their focus onto things like brand name clothing and trendy personal grooming standards?

I’m part way into a book called home school your child for free. But I don’t like it. I wrote a bad amazon review for it. And I’ve been familiarizing myself with the uber Catholic Seton homeschool curriculum. A lot of people make up their own curriculums, borrowing from many places. I think the first year I’m gonna go easy on myself and use Seton + My eldest seems to have a propensity for music and art and language. She’s very uninterested in sports and athletics and frankly not very graceful. So I’ll be pursuing the Suzuki method of violin starting this summer. In the spring time we’ll plant a garden. In the fall we’ll harvest. In the winter we’ll really focus on academics and reading and creating indoor projects like drawing and sewing. My son clearly has an interest in being outside and playing with balls so we’ll most certainly pursue some community sports programs.

I think those pursuits plus church activities and they’ll somehow get raised. Most importantly I want them to be dynamic human beings, rather than task cogs and blind consumers.

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